About a year ago I realized I was a slave to people. I wasn’t being true to myself and I surely was not being true to my God. By placing other peoples’ priorities, needs, and opinions of me ahead of mine, I was indeed a slave to people.
I originally realized this unhealthy relationship with coworkers and colleagues, but later identified the same patterns among friends and family. I literally stopped myself and asked, why am I doing this? I, along with so many other people, feel the need to be accepted. I’m not talking about wanting everyone to like me. Honestly, I do not like everyone myself – brutal honesty. I do not want nor expect everyone to like me. I wanted to be accepted. Accepted for my personality. For my race. For my hair. My style of dress. My success. My failure. My attitude. Accepted for me. I realized that the only person that really needed to accept me, was me. I was already made perfectly imperfect in God’s eyes. I do not need to do nor be anything more. I am enough and I have enough in Him. Now that I realized who I am in Christ and honestly see myself that way, the next thing was to begin working on letting go of acceptance, letting go of fear of rejection.
So for the past year, I have and continue working on being fearless in every aspect of my life. Being unapologetic about my hopeful, determined, honest, and loving personality and intense work ethic. I no longer am concerned about keeping it real – I learned how to be honest in a respectful and meaningful way and still being true to myself. Most importantly, I learned which battles are not worth it and to just keep it moving. I am working on being comfortable around people who do not accept me for me, by humbly being confident in my own skin and never dimming my light. By always smiling no matter the situation. By practicing yoga and connecting to the light in me and in all things. By reaching out to God in all situations and especially when I feel like the emotions waving over me are overwhelming me. For me, stillness with God is the only place I receive true peace.
So, I read His word, and meditate on it weekly. And when a storm rolls in, I connect to that stillness, and to His word. Then I am centered again, in peace. The storm literally washes over my back. Almost like the feeling you get when you skydive. I no longer want to be a slave to people, to fear. Jesus died so I could be free. Freedom. That moment when you realize you no longer care what anyone thinks of you.
Take the chains off, my friend. Enjoy freedom and peace with God.
Wherefore thou art no more a servant, but a son/daughter; and if a son/daughter, then an heir of God through Christ. — Galatians 4:7 KJV
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