The reverent love and devotion accorded a deity (a God or Goddess), an idol, or a sacred object. — Websters College Dictionary
In the morning as I prepare for work I like to start my day with worship. I read The Daughters of the King daily devotional on my iPhone and do my best to read or listen to the bible chapter associated with the devotional (by the way – the Bible app is perfect for listening to the bible on the go). I get in the car and play my worship music, whether it is Christian rock, traditional gospel, or new-age gospel, I feel like my soul needs it to get in a peaceful state before I venture out into the world.
I have been doing this routine for the last three years and today it hit me, that this routine is vital for my wellness. My love for God has grown tremendously throughout that time and I honestly did not know how that happened, until I reflected back to the most difficult time in my life. I experienced a lot of ups and downs throughout the past three years, including the death of family members, graduated from graduate school, started a new job, started a second job to help make ends meet, moved eight hours away from home without knowing anyone or anything for that matter – and endured depression because of the isolation and abhorrent environment. It was the most difficult and rewarding time of my life. I experienced my first panic attack because I didn’t know how to handle the abhor cruelty and associated stress. Everything fell apart. I felt broken and out of control – and for someone with an A type personality that was very unsettling.
I saw my first therapist – and bounced back not because of her (although she was lovely and gave great guidance) – but because my life became a testimony. I experienced being in the valley of darkness and I learned that God will never leave nor forsake me. I trusted God to bring me out of it A L L. For me, worship helped to strengthen my faith through music, daily devotionals and reading His word. Worship is how I express my love for God, the one who loved and understood me through it A L L.
Today I heard Wanna Be Happy? by Kirk Franklin, and Not that easy by Trinity Dawson and I was reminded that I made the decision to be happy by believing in Jesus Christ; and trusted that God would prevent me from breaking, I was simply bending to prepare for something greater.
Give me that joy I can’t explain
Give me that peace that will remain
Give me more of you each day
So that less of me remains.
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